darkearth | (no subject)

I should have figured... you would definitely stand up tall throughout all this...

What about you? How are you?

Someone told me it's okay to not be okay.

[ How dare you use his words against him, terra!! ]

Not too great. I let the fog's affects take hold of me... and I said and did some pretty shitty things to a lot of people.

[HE WILL.]

Me, too. With Aqua. When we were investigating it... [He's quiet for a bit.] I said some things to her that weren't nice. Things I didn't mean.

It was almost like... the darkness again.

I did the same... to Sora. And on top of that I hurt him too. I can't even... bring myself to talk to him right now.

You should. It doesn't have to be now. When you're ready. Even if it's only to apologize. The fog... It made us into someone we're not. Someone different.

I think Sora will understand. He has the strongest heart I know.

Don't give up.

Easier said than done... We've never gotten into a fight before... that pained look on his face as he left the hearth, it still haunts me.

[Terra gets that. Not just here, but back home. There's plenty of people he can think about who have given him a look like he imagines Sora would give. Some of them aren't even around anymore... no thanks to him.]

He cares about you, Squall. He'll always have that look until you go back to him. Don't keep him waiting too long. You and Aqua shouldn't be alone. We've forgiven you.

You have to... forgive yourselves.

I know it's hard. Sometimes, I wonder if I've forgiven myself for what happened back home. Maybe it's why the fog got to me. Some things could have been avoided... if I hadn't been so stupid. But even the earth beneath our feet changes. You just can't see it. If the earth can change, I can, too.

So can you.

I'm... just afraid I guess... I know Sora has a big heart and all but... everyone has a breaking point, Sora's not excluded from that. What if... he decides he can't...

[ Squall makes a noise. He couldn't even finish his sentence. ]

Don't give up.

[It's a little more firm this time.]

You would be surprised what hasn't been able to break Sora. [Even when Sora has thought about giving up.] He wouldn't let any kind of darkness win so easily.

You won't know if he can or he can't until you talk to him. Fear will dim the light in your heart. [A pause.] Did you talk to Riku?

I... haven't even been home since I snapped out of that fogginess. But no... I haven't reached out to Riku.

I won't force you to talk to him, but... When it comes to Sora... Something like this, he would understand you. I think.

[There's a frown in his voice.]

Where are you staying?

Sora probably already told Riku what I did. I'm the last person he's going to want to see right now...

[ he sighs softly, rubbing the back of his neck. ]

The forest mostly...

[??????????? WHAT]

Squall. [Time to strangle otouto.] You don't have to do that.

Do you want me to stay with you at Auron's place?

No it's fine... I.. don't want to go to Auron's place right now. Sora might see me there and run off... I'd rather he be able to visit the people that make him comfortable.

[ Sorry, Terra, your younger brother here is stubborn. ]